after years and years of blaming myself, thinking i was the problem, that i needed to do better, i started therapy. during that time, i realized that i was not the problem. my mom is narcissistic and manipulative. my dad is emotionally immature at best. i grew up never being good enough. my achievements were never my own, but my parents. yet, whenever i did something wrong it was my fault solely. i wish i could hate my parents. i wish i could cut them out of my life. i wish i had the strength. i wish i didnt love them anymore. how do i somehow feel guilty for things they did, choices they made, things they said? i want to scream. i want to punch something. i want to cry. but most of all, i want my parents to love me.
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