i’ve gained like 10 kilos in the past 2 years tryinb to recover from a long eating disorder. but when i ask people if i look better they actually say i look worse off than i used to. do people not like the way i look??? befire all of this i thought i was at least cute looking but now nothing fits in my closet anymore and to top it all off i feel like i’m physically bursting at the seams even though i’m like 66kg at 5’3. i have so many physical insecurities it makes me want to curl up into a ball and let the world forget who i am as i rot and die because it’s clear that no one in my life truly likes me. they all think i’m an ugly fucking bitch who’s moody and manic and a massive pain to be around but it’s not like i can help it. even if i had the motivation to lose weight which now i dont even have it because how much people have been pushing it in my face, i couldn’t muster up the courage. i’m genuinely just a failure of a human being covered and smeared in fat