I’ve been in something that is by far one of the most typical Situtionship experience in my life. Being so close with someone just not to feel chosen. To where they hold on so close because, they are wary of who I could be around, the potential of losing me. Leaving. But not putting their eggs in one basket. When I’ve understand and sympathize from their trauma, PTSD, emotional, and physical abuse they endured as a kid to their most recent longest relationship. I loved this girl thru and thru. I’ve been there with her thru every difficult cycle in her life and still tried to tried to create optimism, faith, and hope. But it ended up just being me carrying everything. And she still couldn’t give me a morsel of an idea of what she maybe had in mind with me. We stay long hours on the phone, fall asleep on the phone, we’ve been intimate and she knows I love her. It’s been a year and a half of this. I know it’s time to let go, but it’s been hard. And I’m trying to push thru.