what can I do to change myself to someone better? what is the formula to change even though with my half hearted attempts still desire it? what is really holding me back and can it please show itself? I'm tired of having to fight an unimaginable force to which I cannot fathom, this unbearable weight which doesn't break my body, but my mind and soul whenever casted upon me. Let me know who you are and why you wish to torment me so, let me find you so I can finally achieve what I longed for so long. Speak to me, address yourself, please so I can finally put a name to face, a faceless specter wishes to remain anonymous within my psyche and tear it from rags to flesh and bone.
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