I miss the idea of my mom. It's almost been a whole year since I last spoke to her. She was so cruel to me for so long, but I find myself crying for her when the stress becomes too much. I think I just miss the idea of being able to call my mom after a hard day, or being able to schedule dinner at my family's home on the weekends. I dont get to have that because she is just such an angry person. I miss you, mom. I hope someday you will find the peace you need to heal. i love you