My birthday was a few days ago from the time that I am writing this letter and my birthday is one of the hardest days for me. Its very hard because my birthday always falls on the week that we spend with my extended family. My grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, you get the idea. I feel so guilty because I don't see my family often, only twice a year, so they all have to come together and celebrate me while I don't get to celebrate any of them. I hate the attention and I also hate how my birthday really just magnifies how little my family actually knows about me. This year my aunt and uncle gave me earrings for my birthday. I don't have my ears pierced. Then I feel so stuck up that I feel that way in the first place. I am very greatful, I am, I just feel so out of place and feel as though no one actually tries to get to know me. This whole thing with my birthday makes me just feel like an outsider in my own life, I just want someone to truly know me and vise versa.