I genuinely have no idea if I'm going to even be able to stay around for another week. Everything is just really shitty right now. It's at that point I've just blocked everybody I know so they pull away so I don't have to hurt them. Damnit why d I always have to fucking walk away from the people I care about. It's harsh of me to just block and ignore them, I know that but damn does it hurt. I can't sleep without thinking of not being alive to the point I'm terrified I might actually do something. I doubt saying this to a bunch of online strangers is going to fix anything but I really needed to say something about it because it just pains me so much. This sounds overdramatic I know but it's not. I basically don't exist in school at home it's no better all my parents do is either argue or find some reason to complain about me. Every single fucking night I can't sleep because I'm worried about absolutely everything. I just want it to stop I really do