I hate that Im so jealous of my friends' achievements, I know this is horrible but it's bad when you're doing horrible while they walk around flaunting it. I did a horrible job at hinding it as well which made it 10x worse. The jelousy was so horrible that I even started to pray for her downfall (but I'd never do anything for it to actually happen). I've started distancing myself to give myself time and also to protect her from me because I'm still her friend at my core, and learned to love my own pace of things. Recently, I've been joining more organizations and events and I hope I get to achieve better things this year.