I know I'm not the only person who wipes away their own tears, because there's no one to vent to. But what else can I do? I don't trust anyone else. I also know I have family and friends, but I don't think I can vent on them. I'm a jolly person and if I told them, they'd be surprised since I'm always laughing, always high energy, and always smiling. And I think that I would just add to their worries, maybe they have problems too and I don't want to add to the issues they're dealing with, I just prefer to keep it to myself because I also think I'm the only one who can fix it. As long as God is with me, I can handle this.