I don't want all of it to be regrets. Whatever my life is, if it had any meaning or purpose at all, I hope it did something at the very least. I hope I did something. Even now as I pray for god's hand to bring me death, as pathetic and worthless as I am, I still don't want all of it to be regrets. Even if I had lived my life as a doormat, I rather do a pretty good job being stepped on than be high and mighty and live for no reason.