What is wrong with me? I value my self image above my own safety and wellbeing. I love being objectified. I am afraid to walk alone in the day but not at night, because I'm more afraid of being insulted than attacked. I choose the man over the bear because what's the man gonna do? He's got no one else around to show off to, and he's not gonna wanna touch me because I'm repulsive. I feel like a permanent soul in a temporary body, and my soul gets broken more with every bit of criticism, and it's become this broken mess in a neglected body. People tell me I have no self respect, but I believe I have a lot of self respect. I protect what is left of my self esteem with my life and avoid any situation where someone is likely to criticise me. I wait until it gets dark out before walking alone if I can, because no one has ever insulted me in the dark. The worst they've done is try to follow me, but at least that made me feel less ugly. Yes I'm a pick me. I just wanna feel good about mysel