I study hard. I never get into trouble. I get extra classes to advance in college. I don't party everyday. I don't drink or smoke without them knowing. I ask their permission on every single thing: purchases, outings, class choices. I never delay an announcement. I told them about my boyfriend even before we got together. Yet, it is never enough. When i get into civil engineering he say's "it's an easy engineering". When I get A's my "classes were easy". When i get a C it's because "I'm lazy and don't try hard enough". I "sleep too much", even when my classes start at 8:30 am and I'm always early. I don't work hard even though I do. I love my dad. He is my idol. 5 bachelors, 3 masters. He built our house. He fought for environment rights, which is the same thing I want to do with studying civil engineering. But he everytime he says these things to me I just wonder, why do I even try. Sometimes I wonder if he says it on purpose, or if he actually is so dumb to not think about his words