most of the time I feel like an alien trying to pretend to be human. since I was a kid I've always been different you know?? like I couldn't make friends because I was too scared to. I talked to trees, to myself in my head sometimes my teachers if I was really desperate but like no one understood me and I feel like no does still. I'm weird and a lot of the time I feel like everyone knows the rules to life and I was just thrust in without being told what to do and not. I used to cry aost every night because why can't I be normal??? I'd cry thing why I couldn't be like everyone else, I don't do as often anymore but I do some days. with others I look chill like Im cool with everything, that I don't feel as much negative stuff but it's not true like I think I cry more than most people when I'm by myself. I don't think I have autism or anything cuz I would know you know? I think I'm just a freaky weirdo idk sorry that was a lot :((