My parents keep on pressuring me. My dad was hitting me, grabbing me and yelling at me while he told me to wash his car. I'm 14. He's told me I have to be a dentist. He calls me my cousin's name a lot, who is a dentist. He favors his nieces and nephews and his sister over his own kids. My grandma takes his side, as she is currently lecturing me over how he isn't rude and how I shouldn't blame him and how it's my fault. I break down over everything recently, but I can't do it in front of them because i come from a brown family that don't believe in depression or mental health. I got SA'D last year at school by a TA and I can't feel like I can tell anyone. I've started disassociating in lessons and have got sort of shit scores (still in set 1). He got mad and started lashing out over it. If I cry it's me throwing a tantrum. If my room has a few clothes on the floor, I'm a lazy cow according to him. If my brothers rooms are messy, it's just boys being boys. I feel like ending it all.