I have been alone for most of my life. I do have problems and I have suffered setbacks because of them. I have most of my family that want nothing to do with me and I since alienated myself from them. I have no intention to harm myself and have no inclination of taking the easy route to end it. I gave too much to live even if little hope is around. That's okay, I been there before and I have to figure it out for myself. If your life is in a world of Chicken shit, make Chicken salad. If life gives you Lemons make Lemonade. Don't make hasty decisions if you're thinking about going the easy route. There is no easy route and only you will suffer the consequences of your own actions.