I feel so guilty for the way I screwed up everything my younger self had going. I don’t know where I went wrong but everything used to be so good and now I feel like such a failure for ruining it for the girl I used to be who was so happy, talented, outgoing, sociable, and excited to live life. Now nothing feels real, I don’t have anyone, I have crippling anxiety that ruins everything, I want nothing but to die, I have no interests anymore, and I do nothing but eat and cry