I think I'm going to kill myself tonight, i actually can't go through another day anymore if all I do all day is sleep, doomscroll, get yelled at every 10 minutes and treated like servant. my parents don't even talk to me anymore except when they want me to get a package from outside or fetch them something to drink. they refuse to let me get mental help because they don't believe in illnesses and even told me that if I had one they'll just beat it out of me. I have my friends, but I can't even hangout with them because my parents keep me cooped up in this house and won't let me go out. everyday it's just wake up, immediately get yelled at to take out their dog, only eat dinner, get yelled at more, get called names like dumb or curse words, go nap for the rest of the day, stay up all night and cut myself, and it just repeats. it isn't getting better.