I don't have many friends at school because I have a bit of social anxiety. Many people have pointed it out by saying "you talk?", "I thought you were a mute.", and "why don't you talk?" When I try to be outgoing, it takes like 5 min to even gain the courage to even say simple thing all the while my face is bright red from embarrassment. I am genuinely terrrified for when school starts, I have about 3 friends, but I'm not there best friend or the first person they would talk to when they go into a room, I don't mean to say this to sound self centered or anything, its just the fact that I don't have that number one person in my life. I want to have the fun high school experience that are in the movies and that I see everyone else having, but I'm too afraid. I go to a smaller high school so there are less people, it's easy for people to make fun of you in groups and I don't want to be talked about. I just wish I had confidence. Confidence in my looks, personality, and everything else