Over the past year I feel like I have distanced myself (knowing or unknowingly) from every person I know I think I appear normal but I genuinely have gone days without saying anything to anyone but my dog I have no one and nothing all of the friend that I thought I had or I would have had if I could talk to people either don’t like me enough to talk to me or only enough to sometimes respond when I call. Recently I called to people I thought and hoped to be friends with and they both said that they had to go and later in the week I call the people again and one of them recounted how they called each other after they left and called all night and then hung out the day after and I had no idea I feel so incredibly alone all the time and even when I talk with people I feel so anxious about losing the small connection that I have with them with just a conversation I hope it can get better because if not I’m gonna make a list of things that I can maybe do to feel fulfilled