i genuinely think two of my friends hate me now after trying to speak my mind. i tried telling them how theyve been making me feel exlcuded- one didn’t even acknowledge it and the other turned it back on me. i can understand what their points were, but it was all old stuff i either never knew about or had already apologized for. i never once got my own apology. that one was my closest friend. and now they keep calling and hanging out without me, and every message i send where i try to ask for even the slightest of help mentally- just going outside. they keep ignoring me or putting me down. i can’t keep my walls up anymore, i don’t want to be the reason for another argument, but the first fight genuinely knocked me down so badly mentally i have never wanted to curl up and just die and never talk to them again more than i do right now. it’s immature to block people but the circumstances are worsening my suicidal ideation, and it’s scaring me.