"I don't really like myself. And I think other people also don't like me. it's not that people are MEAN to me that often, they just don't really care. I know I don't really bother trying to be cool or pleasant to be around. It's not like I don't want to try, I just don't think I can be. I guess it feels sort of.. like my whole life is a joke and everyone either hates me or feels bad for me." Is it weird to feel alone when you have people with you? Nobody gets it. Everyone tells me the same thing. oh but you have friends! and...? they don't treat me so good. they don't talk to me. they leave me out all the time. Is that all I'm good for. being a third wheel. always fucking following. I'm so tired of this shit. I hate everyone.I hate myself too.