i have faced enough challenges for someone to lost hope in everything. what's so special about the world that people say there's a lot that is still needed to be explored before death. does that actually matter? can a person just die without knowing more about the beauty the world knows when the person has only seen the darkness side of the world? if I ever commit, do you still consider it as being selfish? what if that person just want to rest from all the suffering? what if there’s no hope anymore? is there someone or something that'll be able to lit up the light once again? and if there's no one?