i want a relationship. i’m so tired of waiting. all of these horrible people can get a boyfriend/girlfriend so easily and can easily stay together for years. when is it my turn to finally be happy again? i had an amazing boyfriend who changed my life, but we broke up. we were still friends after that, but then we weren’t. we haven’t had an actual conversation in over a year. and we live in different states. i miss him so much. i don’t know what i’m doing wrong. i don’t know how to get over feeling like this. i really want to. i want to remind myself that i can find happiness outside of romance, but it’s like the one thing i’m missing in life. all of my friends spend hours ranting about their partners, and i have to sit there and say “aww!” “that’s nice!” “what do they look like?” “omg!” like talking to taken people genuinely piss me off. but i’m not mad at them, i’m mad at myself. i just wish i wasn’t this dependent.