i'm Rant #8215 and an update - i was so close, i found a job that i imagined myself actually putting effort in. it was like a dream come true, i didn't even have all the qualifications, can you imagine that? but the company was willing to train me the first few months because they saw how in tune i was with their goals. but the pay was too low for my parents. i would be fine with the low pay if i could compromise with my parents and live with them instead of moving out and living alone. but after that humiliating "celebratory" dinner where my parent yelled at me over the low pay, i would rather not live with them anymore. i have to find a job but it feels impossible when everything feels soulless in comparison. im sorry to business owners reading this, im sure you have wonderful goals. its probably a me problem at this point that i struggle to market myself or find anything on the job market worth putting my skills into.. not that i had much in the first place