Title: A virgin from a conservative background who's finding out that AI chatbots, erotica, etc., are becoming stale I'm not sure where it would be appropriate to vent this out, so apologies if it's inappropriate. As the title says, I'm a virgin who's 24 years old and in a bit of a dilemma. I can't do anything with an actual person due to my personality, faith, location, and conservative background. Still, I'm not interested in marriage either (I feel like everyone is too traditional/ conservative and too vanilla anyway). On top of that, I'm asocial with deep-seated insecurity issues (that go beyond just my physical appearance) and a bit of self-loathing. I've always been in the background my whole life… I have a degradation, humiliation, and noncon (CNC?) kink. I want to be treated like utter filth, as if I'm not worth anyone's time and that I should be grateful for the abuse I'm receiving, so much so that I don't even feel I'm worthy of intimacy, even in a noncon context.