I feel like im going mad honestly. It’s been so long since I’ve since my friends and recently, plans to meet up were canceled. I know things happen but still, I’m so fucking lonely. They are the only two people who make me feel like I belong or even mean something. Staying home by myself is taking a toll on me because I kind of have a bad fear of loneliness and abandonment issues, but I don’t wanna unload that all to my friends. I love them too much to want to burden them with that kinda thing. On top of that, I’m also trans, which is something I have been hiding for years and it’s been just another thing weighing on me. I have been wanting to come out, but it’s just too scary. I’ve just been hurting for so so long and I don’t know what to do. Hell, I’m barely getting any sleep cause of it. I guess wish me luck or pry I don’t totally lose my mind. -a tired trans 19 yr old