I wish I wasn't alive anymore I wish I was dead would you still love me if I was a stone I asked he was curious what do you mean by a sterling I mean a rock a stone was you still love me if I was a stone he was concerned he didn't understand what I meant so I told him he was concerned he didn't understand what I meant after I told him everything that masturbate that ruined me that made me feel life he did it to me my fears in life the things that made me feel not good about myself like I hate myself like I'm a horrible person he did to me she made me feel like exactly the way I explained I didn't want to I don't want to be alive anymore