It's the version of me that no one sees, the version of me that sits in my room cries myself to sleep wonders why people don't text me back and then is concerned if I make one person feel bad I'm the person that will show up to parties with a small on my face go home and immediately crash I am mentally not the greatest I'm the happy friend the inclusive one but I'm always left out I'm the one that's I'm the angry daughter horrible friend the bad girlfriend I'm the always in trouble always annoying always rude person I don't know what I need anymore in life I just wish I had something earlier today like when I'm writing this it's currently 3:35 I made my sister cry earlier at like 2:00 because I apparently hurt her I did not mean to hurt her and got really mad at me for hurting her and I made her cry and I told her crying makes her vulnerable and I was thinking about that thinking about her crying does make you but I'm thinking that I shouldn't be making my sister feel bad for crying