hello, me and my bf recently broke up, it was a healthy breakup, he just didnt feel the same about me anymore since he'd been thinking about it and he's gay. ik we're not gonna get back together, and im okay with it, we're young, and we have a friend group in common, he did love me, just not anymore, and i keep telling myself i dont love him the same way, but i keep crying and wishing i was a boy, even if i feel like a girl, and im a girl, but if i was a boy would he still love me? i know it's selfish but i cant do it anymore, i want him to be happy, but the thought of him dating someone else makes me so fucking sad and idk, on the gc we have in common he replies to what i send, but on priv he doesnt, like, i sent something and he left me on seen. i also have thoughts of not wanting to live, and i keep relapsing, my best friend says i can vent to him, but i know for a fact he hates when people talk about sui to him, so i wont, i just think everyone would be way happier without me, bye