Rant #9369

I regret it, it's my fault, I was wrong, I accept it. But how can I explain it to them? It's hard studying while thinking of a problem, it's been a few weeks now. I miss being in bed for 10 minutes then being asleep right away, now it takes me hours before I fell asleep. I would even have to gaslight myself to get over it everynight. Yet it always comes back. I hate it, I really hate it. IDK anymore..