i can't explain enough that i'm sensitve. people think that just cuz i dont cry often, i dont show how upset i am over something that i wasn't affected. i was. i was so deeply hurt and u don't even know it. and i hate when people think that they are the only one struggling in life, everyone has their problems ik everyone is struggling atleast a little that's why i dont vent to anyone cuz i dont want people to feel burdened. i hate the sound of crying i hate it so much, i hate when other people have a sobbing sound when they cry i dont make noise when i cry cuz i dont like the sound. you know what else i hate. making me feel special even when u dont love me as much as i loved you. i kid u not every man i have talked to has only ever talked to me to flirt with me, and than when i confess to them after they blatantly flirt with me and say i love you they say "oh i was just messing with ya it's not serious." i give up on trying to find someone to love, they never love me back.