I wish I was likeable. I wish people would hangout out with me once and think “wow, she’s kinda cool. I should hit her up again”. I wish I didn’t come off as scary and mean. I’m not. I just don’t smile and I don’t wanna fake a smile for the pleasures of others. I don’t wanna change my personality for others comfort. It also doesn’t help that I’m not smart, it makes others feel like they have to aid me with every problem I have instead of letting me figure it out on my own. Like I’m incapable. I hate that I’m like this. I make it so hard for my boyfriend to find friends because people don’t like being around me. It’s not like I can blame them. If I hung around someone who was blunt and stupid, I would be exhausted too.
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