Every day feels miserable. I try to cover up my unhappiness, and sometimes I feel okay. Then it all comes crashing back. I genuinely don’t think I’ve ever been okay. It feels like life is an endless loop I’ll never escape. I want to sleep all day. Ever since I was a kid I have been sad, even in elementary school. When something little goes wrong I start spiraling and crying. All my relationships fail and I’m always left as the one hanging on. The one who is heartbroken, who is dumped. I fear my dreams will never come true. I tell myself I’ll get better, but I’m 17 and it’s been years and years. As a kid I struggled with being bullied, and depression. It’s never ended. It’s been so long. Some days can be so hard. Some days I cry to sleep. Some days at school I cry during lunch. I struggle socially at school and often sit alone. I don’t have much energy to deal with people anymore. I don’t know what to do. College is coming up. I’m terrified