I met up with my first love after 2 years of no contact. she was my best friend but I was deeply in love with her and she knew it, but she wouldn't stop bragging about the people she had things going on with. she eventually got a boyfriend, started answering slower and I suddenly felt abandoned, so I told her our friendship couldn't go on. I was surprised when she suggested we meet up, of course I accepted in a heartbeat, my love for her is long gone, but ever since, I wasn't able to get attached to anyone else, let alone fall in love. for me, she'll be the one and only and we didn't even date. whenever I feel like someone could replace her in my heart, I push that person away. I refuse to go through everything again. when I met her again, I did my best to look as if I've been doing good without her, I did my makeup, I wore a nice outfit and I even hid my scars. she asked me how I've been doing, how was college, I tried my best to talk about nice stuff. she hugged me when we said bye.