maybe i never had a crush on you, maybe i just wanted what you had so badly i thought being with you would show me what i was doing wrong, but i never had the ability to do what you could to begin with, i was always destined for nothing. i wish i was born lucky like you. you always tell me things will get better, but you don't even have a clue what my life is like, you couldn't even imagine having my brain for a day, the worst day of your life doesn't even compare to it. you're so fucking lucky and you don't even know it. i hope you never experience what i do.