Separate rant, already brought up I'm a old guy (some think I'm old so) who wanted a dom etc... Some people at least agreed with the feeling, one even saying I will be ok... No, no I haven't. I've already lived enough to know I've been forgotten and discarded and made to deal with everything alone when thats been part of the problem from the start. I get there's others who are worse off, but there's others who are better off so shut up... Are you saying I should just deal with it... It been years and it has already led me near into deep shit so no. World, gimme something good my way, I'm owed SOMETHING otherwise why am I even alive? I can't even get the opportunity to do anything but absolute assholes with disorders get every comfort blanket possible and are allowed to live in delusions and I'm forced to accept the reality of being some evil dickhead? I demand karma my way.