i’m tired. i’ve been tired for the past year having to deal with someoen i care for so much. and yes it’s to the point im using the phrase “deal with” rather than “care for” because everyday i have to guess whether this ticking, medicated, depressed time bomb will set off and go on a rant where I have to spend 2 hours of my night to help ward off and hope nothing bad happens to them. Its been 4 years of this happening once in a while but now its been frequently. I dont know if they’re missing their medication or whatever but it has been frustrating to KNOW they’re in a bad mood and have nothing else to say. I have zero freaking thigns to say to this person i view as my own damn sibling. I dont know what to do anymore and its making me pray as a non-praying person. I HOPE everyday i wake up and they are still there. all of this is just hindering me and i cant tell them to “go help yourself its your responsibility” when this person NEEDS help and HAS the medication and everything.