I hate having 4 brothers who are way smarter than I'll ever be, and being the only girl, I'm always always getting compared with them, oh how smart they are, how talented they are, how I'm weak in every subject they excel at, I'm so scared and self conscious with every little mistake I do. Like, I'm sorry I don't have the same brain capacity as them, I'm sorry I can't be good at certain things, I'm sorry I can't be better, I'm sorry this is all I fucking am. I fight with myself every single day, but that, they don't notice.