i find myself to always yearn for love and friendship and to be cared for by others in general however when i do receive it, i feel odd and wonder if that was what i actually wanted, i just start to feel empty and confused,my feelings can easily go from intense love and obsession to absolute hatred for no reason to the point where i don't know what do i really feel, no matter how close was i to people and how much love and affection i showed them, i can easily detach myself from anyone without feeling the slightest guilt about it and all what can i think is " are they going to talk about me behind my back? " i get bored of people so easily and just want to stop talking to them, but i force myself to because i don't wanna seem like a bad person when it's something i can't control myself, i have lost so many friendships because of this and i always was the one to blame, is it really my fault?