Rant #8814

Why am I trying to hold on to this loveless and incompatible marriage. I ask myself that everyday. I say it’s for the kids But are they really better off like this or would they be better off with me. I didn’t think I was afraid to be alone because I like when he’s not around. But when push comes to shove and thinking about aging parents, having no one does seem unappealing. But which is worse, having no one or having someone who you dislike. I dont know.