I think I have a crush on someone. I've been in relationships with friends, but we just went back to the friends status. One left and ghosted me after we did more sexual stuff but never went the whole way, which was pretty humiliating and it hit me hard. I'm scared that it will be the same with this crush. Maybe I just am very happy in the friendship, I don't really know how crushes work, I am on the spectrum and have been alienated my whole life socially. I hate feeling so alone, so strange, and so alien.