everyone says I have an amazing personality and that I'm pretty, but they always rate my intelligence below average...not stupid exactly. just not the sharpest tool in the cabinet. I know I'm not the smartest person out there but the part that eats away at me is a lot of what they think makes me dumb isn't real. growing up my friends discriminated against me, were jealous of my success, pulled away whenever I did good, my parents used to drive away and leave me in the house alone crying as a punishment and I never knew if they would come back. I am terrified of people leaving. I am a people pleaser. and so I learned to have high reactions to ragebaits because it makes them laugh. I learned to be whatever they needed. I learned to pretend to be stupid, to not know things, to ignore the dirty jokes. they like that I'm "stupid". makes them feel better about themselves. and they can teach me. they like that I'm innocent. I don't do it for something like popularity. I do it so they stay.