I dont know why im so big. Well I do. But it just doesn't stop. I wish I could have the motivation to get up and exercise, but I feel like I look dumb and doing it is worthless. I keep gaining. When I was little, I begged my parents and brothers to play with me. They'd say "in 15 minutes" and then they never did. I dont know how to socialize anymore. I have friends but I cant talk to them. How can I? We moved so much I never got to have a close person from being young. My friends are graduated and im completely and totally alone.