honestly? life is getting repetitive nowadays. I used to be so energetic and fun but now? I’m just the hollow shell of the person I used to be. deaths of others, deaths of animals, and embarrassing times are eating my insides. the death that broke me the most was when my cat died. I feel weird since I talk to imaginary friends more often then irl friends. I just want to jump off a bridge into the water and let myself drown atp. like, yeah, I have so much in life that I love, but there’s just those annoying, stupid moments that always come back to my mind. I still feel like no one truly cares about me, so thats probably why I only ever told my cats. I keep pulling all nighters cause of my mind saying “stay awake and do this!!” doing “this” makes me feel disappointed in myself for doing it. it’s always different things than other times. welp, bye. have a good day.