Rant #8637

im too desensitized to 5uicide and death and g0re. i got introduced to it when i was a kid and now i can't stop thinking off brutal ways to end my life when i feel even the slightest bit depressed. i hate that i cant confide in anyone, since i live in a pretty strict muslim household. just mentioning 5uicide would cause a ruckus. its crazy that as im typing this, i go back because i keep forgetting to censor the words, like usbskansksm i cant do this. im gonna crash out