Hello, I just want to come here and let some things out, but I feel like I'm done with life. I'm almost 21 and I feel like I haven't achieved anything. Hell, I feel like I'm not good enough and I failed everyone. I mean yeah I have a job and I'm helping my mom with stuff, but I feel like I'm not doing enough. I see everyone around me adapting to the adult life and acting more mature while I'm stuck behind. I still feel like that scared depressed teenager. I'm still stuck with my interest since I was in middle school, and I still have no social life due to my terrible mental health. Not only that, I feel like I'm too busy mourning the loss of my past, when times felt more happier and easier. I miss being a child, I miss the 2010s. Nostalgia is literally going to kill me one of these days. Everyday I think about ending it, so a burden like me won't take up space. I'm useless, worthless, and stupid, so there's no reasons to live on. Who knows, I'm trying to get better. I'm trying.