Honestly no matter how hard I kept getting up forcing myself to get better every day got worse now I’m at point zero again I feel so left behind to the point of not knowing what to do I have these chest pains for 2 years now and honestly it hurts but I can’t tell anyone bc I know they might think I’m being dramatic i just sometimes hug a blanket in the dark and my parents walk in and just think I’m being a selfish ungrateful child but honestly I’m being forced into religion, sexuality, and even having my own pain isn’t acceptable. My younger sibling is always trying to get my rights taken away and idk what I did wrong I keep trying to be a big older sibling but every time he tries to sabotage me no one believes me and it scares me he says really strange things and my life keeps getting creative on how to get worse and I’m considering just ending it bc it’s the safest and happiest option I feel stuck I don’t think anything will help believe me I tried mom and dad if only you believed me