Rant #8533

i keep fucking up. and ufcking up. and fucking up im so tired. i just want to do things right and when i think im there i am kicked and i fall and i keep falling. every time i feel stable and i think im okay i think im secure i get kicked again. i put so much faith into what if i put so much faith into peple and love and love and love over and over again with all my heart and its not enough. im not enough. i am not enough. i want to be enough