I feel dishearten. Whrn I try to br smart and work hard I get disatisfy and cry when I got a mediocore score or failed! When I try to lighten myself up, an abstacle came to just bring me down... I know God works in mysterious ways... but they are soo many doings I dont get him. Like when a single man sinned, his whole family will get punish for it! (According to the bible) imagine that your future will have to face your fathers consequences. when you are still at the damn womb developing! Not only that they are some verses that is kinda sexist... I am a christian and I do belive in God. However, I do not belive the bible that is presenting us now(Niv) It is soo easy to change and alter text or even mistranslation it! Even I ask God I mostly dont have a clear answer... my questions are that why is innocent people...kids, adults, and teens who did nothing wrong and have shitty lives and died a sufferable death? What they do to desserve this?