It'd feel better if my parents just hated me. They still love me; they say they do, they act like they do, but I just can't believe it. They say they love me, but don't accept me, and I don't see how one can exist without the other. If you truly love someone, shouldn't you accept who they are as well? They say they disagree with my decisions, but as much as I try to explain it to them, they just don't understand that my gender is not a decision. They think I'm doing this to be quirky, or to be different. I'm not. I wish it was that simple. I'm just trying to feel like myself. I've never felt that way, and if my parents keep acting like this, I don't think I ever will.